Thursday 20 December 2018



Dear readers,

Christmas is here and I am happy to be celebrating it outside the walls of a mental hospital.
It feels good to be well. For those visiting the blog for the first time. I have been diagnosed with
Bipolar Disorder since I was seventeen. I am thirty years old now.

I miss my daughter Venturina. O what I would give to see her this Christmas. She is going to be celebrating Christmas without her mom for the second year in a row this year and it just breaks my heart.

Yes she is in my heart. My mom says "I don't miss anyone because they are in my heart" and she is right. Tickets to go there are very expensive. But the invisible chord that unites us will be hard at work.


Saturday 10 March 2018

A Mother's Day

This post is for all the mothers and fathers out there doing their part for their children.

This post is particularly close to my heart because I am a mother due to no circumstances of my own happen to be away from my daughter Venturina. Who is only four years old.

We are doing our best to get her a Visa so she can be reunited with myself, her grandmother and her uncle and aunty Joseph and Angela. It has been a very difficult quest but with the help of everyone around us, we will be able to bring her here to the UK. From Rwanda. This year. God willing.

Me, my mum and dad called her a few days ago and she was missing us so much you could see it in her eyes.

There are so many of us out there. Working, trying to give our children the best start in life. And the imbalance of not being able to touch them. Or to see them as is in my case. Breaks your heart sometimes. YOU just want to be able to give her a hug, kiss her forehead, make her feel loved and appreciated.

And it is not just me who is living away from her in other countries. Trying to improve my job prospects and better our lives and hers. Some of my friends who have suffered from mental health conditions struggle because their children sometimes get taken into care or foster families because their mother or father and or both are unable to support them.


Venturina AKA Skies looking in the distance waiting for mummy to come and pick her up


One of my mates was telling me how lucky she has been because when she was ill her grandmother took care of her kids. And they didn't go into care. I told her too that I am grateful my mother was is still is there for my daughter too.

We need to acknowledge our carers and helpers
because they are amazing.

Thank you for your time